This has been such a good past few days, I miss Bruce but I am so grateful to have time to myself to reassess where I am in life and where I should be heading. I spent all day yesterday cleaning up gardens, filling in dirt and getting ready for Spring, it has been so long since I have been this ahead of the curve and I am so happy that over the next few weeks my yard will be full of colorful flowers. Also, little by little I am making changes inside my home, like you said eating the elephant one bite at a time. One shelf, one drawer, one closet. I am throwing out stuff that has been strangling me forever and it feels great. I feel like since I made the decision to finally get the heck out of my negative job situation I am lighter, my spirit is more happy and I am so relieved, like a 10 load of bricks is being lifted from around my neck and there hasn't been one single second that I doubted or second guessed my decision. My boss is a jerk most of the time. I listen politely to his moaning and badgering and just keep thinking to myself, I am almost done and I don't care. After all this time of doing all the grunt work to make his plans and schemes work, I just don't care anymore and that is such a great and freeing feeling!
Anyway, just wanted to say THANKS for being my cheerleader. I am not scared nor confused. I have worked hard and saved my whole life to get to this point. I know I have enough and I know the rest of my life will be lighter and happier and more fulfilling than any job I've ever had. I am grateful that I had good breaks along the way, that I ended up in places that I never thought possible and I can also now admit that it wasn't just because I was lucky or that it was some fluke, it was a lot because I gave everything and worked hard and did what others said I couldn't do and that is a reward in itself. A big victory for a backwards, shy, bugger eating, kid from a trailer in LaVerkin. We both did good, me and you, because no one ever told us we couldn't do it if we wanted to badly enough. We ROCK!
At least we sit on rocks!
Now that's the Ann I love most...great post my sweet! You said it all, you worked, saved, and planned for this time in your journey, now enjoy it!!! You know you deserve it, you know you earned it, and you know you will love it! I am so proud of you. How is that elephant tasting - mighty fine! Didn't know you could enjoy elephant so much did you?
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